The Doctor sat huddled at the table in a corner of his bedroom. Except for a lit candle on the table, the entire room was enshrouded in darkness, curtains drawn, door shut while the wind pounded against the windows. His external surroundings mirrored the chaos in his head and the dull, hollowness in his heart. His fingers trembled as he tried to commit on paper in as coherent a manner as possible the terrible thing that he had done. Yet, it had to be done, it was the only way he could get some peace for himself.
It all started the day he found out that Peter Rex was his new patient. He entered the ward with great trepidation, uncomfortable at the thought of meeting the man who had made his life hell during his schooldays. He was the biggest bully in school- mean, obnoxious, vulgar, spoilt and cruel. Big-sized and heartless, he always made the Doctor the butt of his jokes, torturing and teasing him. The Doctor could not forget the nasty remarks hurled at him. The thought of having to treat this man or even coming to face him again did not make him happy.
There he was lying in his bed, cheeks sunken, limbs frail with numerous drips hooked up to machines. He looked like a man on the verged of death. He was mostly lifeless, occasionally uttering a few words in a hoarse voice. He clearly did not recognize his victim from the past. The Doctor checked his files, Peter Rex was in the last stage of cancer. He felt partly sad for Peter who was not much older than he was and yet part of him secretly felt that Peter finally got what he deserved in the end. Ironically, the roles have been reversed. Today, he was the one in-charge.
Days passed and the more he had to see Peter, the more the old, hurtful memories of the past returned. He grew increasingly angry and resented the fact that he had to treat this man. He remembered all those times where he was both physically and verbally bullied. Thoughts of seeking revenge began creeping into his head. Then, he did the unthinkable. He simply wanted to erase Peter Rex’s presence out from his life once and for all.
One night, when the nurse on duty was not looking, he crept unnoticed into the ward, Peter Rex was still awake. Looking straight into his eyes, the Doctor triumphantly said, ” Goodbye Peter,” and switched off the life support machine. As the lights on the machine faded, the doctor stood and watched in cold calmness as Peter’s eyes closed and he breathed his last. The Doctor then switched on the machine and slipped away.
With tears streaming his face the Doctor signed off his confession letter. He folded it neatly and left it on the table. He left the room and his house. With each step he took as he climbed the stairs up to the rooftop, his remorse grew over the horrible deed he had committed against another human being. Just as he had shown no compassion towards Peter, he would show himself none as well. He summoned all his courage as he prepared to take the leap off the edge.
